cjpfaz
Status: Working at it but keep messing my life up.
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- She surprised me upset me with one question and the way she did it too. She asked are you ready to let it all go behind you (very bad child sexual abuse that I really only covered major things once through mostly artwork). Just by asking I feel...
- I had told them was done through my dad by not going to their (p. & r. M. House or c. & c. N house). The abuse with my father was still going on but I wad trying to stop it too, but was still giving in.It was later in the summer. Mid to late...
- Don't really have more to say.
- It was summertime. A party outside. There is watermelon. I try to like it, but don't. N. Family is there. My family. M. Family? If so, then the three main families that sexual abused me were there except one that I have not touched on much in...
- It was summertime. A party outside. There is watermelon. I try to like it, but don't. N. Family is there. My family. M. Family? If so, then the three main families that sexual abused me were there except one that I have not touched on much in...
- When I get hurt by others I clam up and get angry at me . Then I take it out on me. That is what happened in therapy week. Saw her today and basically told thet That has made the impulse to cut myself bad again. Not only did I allow myself to...
- Just about to see her and do not want to talk to her about it. I know I need to and should because that uis why I cut myself twice right after seeing her on sat before ii had to go to work later. I feel like blowing her off and cutting myself. ...
- Yesterday I could not eat, could not take meds last night because I was awake all night preparing for a colonoscopy. Could have had a couple of the meds, but being self-destructive, inplusive, anxious and depressed so much and already not being...
- How can write positive things which I believe for others and turn around and say that it is hopeless in my case. Which it is. Cut myself just to feel something other than the deep, deep depression, but how many times more will that work. It made...
- My therapist and I knew I was imon the verve of memories yesterday, but we did not know what of. I had two memories. The second one was oneone I could never get to althrough I knew something was there. Last evening I went down to that basement...
- Did not think I really had anything, but from 6 until after 10 I was having chest pains. Bad when and after walking up the stairs. Think they will let me go in morning or tbey may make me take a stress test first.
- Been trying to grin and bear it but it's not working anymore. I am missing you guys. I shut down because my therapist is out of town until the 25th of october. I am using november's rent for october's rent. Worst case scenario i have cancer. ...
- The lawyers will not take the case on not perment damage or death, so not worth time and more psychological than anything. It could have been a lot worse. I am trying to lodge complaint but they have not returned my two calls so far, but I will go...
- If u would have told me Saturday I would feel good Wednesday. I would have not believe it, but I feel better than I normal do. So there is hope out there for everyone. Just hang in there.
- Was taken there 7 am Sunday. Will tell more later, just got home, but wanted to let you all know I was going good and alive. Will tell more later. I have to pick up my fiancee. Thanks every one!!!