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In my book of life, Janice was supposed to be the entire book!That chapter has ended, a new chapter is being written!Life is a novel with twists and turns, I'm well on my way to a happy ending!

Not having someone to interact with and share life has become such a heavy load. It is like living in a pressure cooker. Tears and life keep building up inside me but nothing gets out.

The total isolation that comes from being so alone all the time is overwhelming…Seems like I would be getting used to it by now.Try as I might, I am just not cut out for this.I think I will do...

It sucks when all the time I feel as though I have so much to offer, but yet no one to offer it to.

Just when I get the feeling this roller coaster is slowing down a bit, like maybe the ride is ending it takes off again full speed straight down. I am so tired of this. I need a rest.

In my previous entry, I was not referring to myself. My heath is fine, I do so much appreciate your concerns and comments. In my journal entry, I am remembering how my wife died. Cancer took her...

It is possible to throw up several times a day even you have not eaten for months? I wish I didn’t know that.

One year ago today August 21, 2013, Janice went home, she is an angle now. On this earth she was a Daughter, a Sister, a Mother, a Wife, a Grandmother and a Friend to all who knew her. Her smile, a...

Oddly enough I am at a far better place now. I am at a place where just a few short months ago I didn't dream was possiable. I hope this better place holds up as I need rest.

I don't plan well.If you don't plan a meal, you don't eat. If you do plan a meal and you even follow through with your plans, a few hours later you are right back where you started. Planning meals...

I have always considered myself part of a couple. That is now I still see myself. I am now incomplete. I want to be whole. They call me a widower. I hate that word. I am now a broken half. I am a...

I just want to curl up in the corner and go to sleep.How could this have happened?Grief expressed is often grief diminished.I feel like I am fighting a losing battleThe silence goes on and on and on....

It is as if I speak another language now. Nobody talks to me, they don’t understand me now.This is overpowering. I need a break. I cannot believe this turn of events in my life.Greif is a lot of...

Cooking for one makes just as big a mess as cooking for two. What if the person who died could return to see what you are doing with your life? Would he or she like how you have been transformed?...

Grief never ends…………….But it changes.Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor lack of faith.Grief is a passage, a journey to a new place.Grief is the price we pay for love. There is an...