I called in sick to work today. I said that I had stomach flu, but in reality I spent most of the night dinking on the computer and drinking a 2 liter of Mountain Dew right out of the bottle (such a bad-ass, I am).
I'm sleepy all the time, and I suspect my lack of energy has more to do with my medications and the general poor care I've been taking of myself....eating too much, no exercise. I've been falling asleep at my desk at work. It's going to come back to bite me one of these days. I'm just so tired...all the time.
I seem to be very susceptible to suggestion. I come back to a depression group and right away I start feeling depressed again. I'm fighting it. I have too much in this life that I want to do without spending all my time wallowing in my own misery.
I'm always struck by the pain of the people on here. The few words I can throw out there feel like I'm pissing on a forest fire. The words help, I know. Sometimes it helps so much just to know that someone, somewhere, cares. I'm trying my best to let people know that I do care. For whatever it's worth...for however useful or useless my words are, I do, at least, care. It's the truth, and I want people to understand that if they understand nothing else.
Time to try to sleep.
Steve
I'm sleepy all the time, and I suspect my lack of energy has more to do with my medications and the general poor care I've been taking of myself....eating too much, no exercise. I've been falling asleep at my desk at work. It's going to come back to bite me one of these days. I'm just so tired...all the time.
I seem to be very susceptible to suggestion. I come back to a depression group and right away I start feeling depressed again. I'm fighting it. I have too much in this life that I want to do without spending all my time wallowing in my own misery.
I'm always struck by the pain of the people on here. The few words I can throw out there feel like I'm pissing on a forest fire. The words help, I know. Sometimes it helps so much just to know that someone, somewhere, cares. I'm trying my best to let people know that I do care. For whatever it's worth...for however useful or useless my words are, I do, at least, care. It's the truth, and I want people to understand that if they understand nothing else.
Time to try to sleep.
Steve
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Please Steve, please know that we do indeed care very very much.
Things will get better, you will see.
Hang in there, and start taking care of yourself. You are a member of this T. family and we are all here for you.
We care too, believe that will you?
Kasandra (Sandy)
I feel like that too, sometimes; where I come here, and leave feeling more depressed. I never know when that\'s going to happen....
But so MANY times, I come here, and I end up having amazing conversations with wonderful people who know EXACTLY how I feel....with all its imperfections, it\'s still a useful resource, so often! (Stay away when you need to, come back as needed...)
What you\'re dealing with is so difficult. We know you\'ve tried and tried for so long to make her understand how much you loved her. I\'ve been in your shoes; all I can say is tae it a day at a time, and please DO not punish yourself or jeopardize your job because of this. Treat yourself as a loving friend would do.
I hope you will see how much acceptance and strength there actually IS here for you, and like Pepper said, take this time to lean on your friends, the people you feel safe with.
I feel your pain