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Well another anniversary...Instead of going out for dinner with hubby...I made my second anniversary since you passed by myself at the cemetary... Brought a card with my thoughts of our 37 years of...

Nobody has the same fingerprints mine are mine only ..everyone is unigue...Most of us don't think about about ourselves being unique in ways like that..I am studying Jennifer Rothschild book...on...

As I try to be strong and put my trust in my faith.. sometimes a moment comes down over me and I will have a body rushed come over me...then I feel anxious....I can try to control myself..but I can't...

I feel like a dimwit...In one week..I couldn't find my home phone for hours...couldn't find my glasses...I already had them on....couldn't find my purse...had a procedure done by a dr...then I can't...

Nice spending time with the grandkids...hid some plastic eggs with goodies for 4yr.Kwintin and 7yr. Kairi.....They came to church this morning...I  love when my family joins me at church....This is...

I don't like thinking about my husband's actual death...It was heartbreaking...I came to the hospital and they were taking him to I C U..!everything was bad news and kept getting worse...He is on...

Well I finally made a appt..with a therapist to get a grip and help...I was doing better I thought...Then my son...says I keep getting a look on my face...He says he is trying to help me and he...

Now I find myself crying more..The Autorama is going on in Detroit..Something Rick liked to go to..Last year he couldn't because he was to weak...Now it's on TV ..people I know are talking about...

My son and fiancee have been here for me...which I appreciate..My son has clinical depression and for some reason he has been lashing out at me..I honestly don't know what I am doing that gets to...

I feel lost...I don't know what to do with my time..My husband had cancer and we were always going places for one thing or another..drs..chemo...surgeries. tests..etc...now I just sit most of the...

I think I will try to find a grief support group..There is one called grief share..Most have started...but I need to get back to feeling a part of something..I am stuck and try to push my feelings...

I feel some in my family don't understand what I am going thru..their grief is not like mine..They didn't spend everyday with my husband like I did for almost 40 yrs..My life has changed...

I miss my husband...Rick...It's been 9 months...and I still feel like it's not real...but I know it is...I am absent minded...misplacing things...and can't think straight at times..I am aggravated...

As soon as my medicine wears off I start feeling overwhelmed. Loosing Rick is like loosing part of myself. Until someone spouse dies they don't really understand what its like..I didn't when my mom...