harold1965

Finished treatment...... Back in Miami..got my family back..

Im ok.. Im in Kansas waiting on inpatient.. I will go into more detail tomorrow 

...from the time I got up this morning until just now..the cravings and the mental manipulations going on in my mind over whether to use or not use have been absolutely off the chain today and the...

..well in a good store in a normal part of the neighborhood I ran into my main crack dealer with one of my smoking buddies taggin behind him. They say make a geographical change but it really doesn't...

Wife and I noticed that like clock work I have anxiety every afternoon so I have been taking benadryl as it shows up as itching. It works and each day the anxiety outburst is getting less and less....

Great day ,,,,great recovery..got back on the road today and worked my ass off..landed a new contract and was paid!!!  Cashed my check and gave it to my wife as suggested..had a twinge of trigger...

,,,great day but damm this itching is driving me crazy,,pretty sure @ day 11 this much be anxiety exhibiting itself in itching or the chemicals that were in the crack or both but its driving me...

up early...thanking God..should have been gone. Long time ago but reflecting on what potential recovery obstacles are out there...do I have to travel through trouble areas...am I handling money today...

...spent time looking @ the smart recovery worksheets and noticed that i have a tendency to over dramatize things..im irritable far too much..even to the point of physically itching as i go through...

...we were blessed with a 2015 Kia Optima and it took all day to get approved but i told my wife this morning that she was gonna get her blessing and she did..four weeks ago in the heart of my...

i am liking the new me and work is getting better, I have begin to really envision what that addiction really looks like in the streets and feeling the pain and the desperation of just what 330 am...

i am liking the new me and work is getting better, I have begin to really envision what that addiction really looks like in the streets and feeling the pain and the desperation of just what 330 am...

Week tomorrow!!!!

Headed to Miami Dade central Intake to volunteer for treatment...wow..this is a first!! Im so tired of this addiction....gotta to make a change!!

...one day at a time