tossedaside

once again a twist of fate has caused depression,  I constantly worry if I say the right things,do the right things etc.  I just roll along thinking everyone is content with my being and then bam...

  Made a lot of new friends this past week or so through DS, and lost a few in life. And so it goes had a very good outing with the youngest for his bday bash at Hooters, his red face said it all. ...

  V day is sucking,  You never know how you will react to different situations till they are thrust upon you.  there are going to be so many 1sts for me now that she is gone, and i constantly try...

 no tobacco has touched my lips

thought about this a a long time today while tediously doing my job and felt I needed to put my thoughts in words..    31yrs ago was the first time I had ever told anyone other than imediate...

yesterday when i got home from work,  was very much looking forward to some time off,  today with the weekend almost gone, didnt realize how alone i really am,  with the exception of DS i havent...

though nothing has changed in my life  for the 1st time in a long time I am actually looking forward to some time off,  nothing planned no parties nothing just happy to be off work  I think I may...

 Went to my oldest last night to watch a pay per view, and the damn cable comp screwed it up never saw a thing but we did have some good conversation.  For the past 15yrs I have watched this boy...

   Cold as a well diggers ass and cold at home.  There was a song once GOT NO REASON NOW FOR GOING HOME< ALL MY REASON NOW, SHE IS GONE.  I'm sure some of you remember it. That is the way I spend...

 just finished reading a friends journal,  tears flowing down my face I again ask why has all this happened, she is able to forgive her H for his infidelity and I know that isnt an easy task. ...

kept my son home from school 2 days to start the week, running a fever bad cough and just generally felt like crap.  this is what i text to his mother   KEPT SON HOME 2DAY HE HAS A BAD COUGH AND...

  still kickin butt on the tobacco scene, just incredibly tired all the time.  the emotional roller coaster is wearing me down along with the frigid temps.  have to see lawyer again 2day and try...

  Doing fine as far as kicking the tobacco habit,  Divorce proceedings are proceeding, now Im in shambles regarding income.  My job has been extremely slow since last year no OT and no full work...

  have not had a dip of skoal since Tuesday morn, hooray for me a nd bless the poor souls that have to contend with my moods now. The finality of the divorce is growing closer and I still don't...