just finished reading a friends journal, tears flowing down my face I again ask why has all this happened, she is able to forgive her H for his infidelity and I know that isnt an easy task. Myself i long for the oppurtunity to forgive or be forgiven. I never have cheated and never would but at times I know I wasnt there for her when she needed me or else she wouldnt have looked elsewhere. I will probably lose our home in the next month and continue to fall behind on bills, I don't know how much longer I can go on alone, Im sorry I couldnt love her the way she needed I wish i could have heard her
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I sent you a message and I hope that you read it. I hope that if this marriage does fall apart, which, if you are still married then there is always hope. Take something from this and reach out again and again. Not to the point that you are desperate and can be set up for ruin, but if you have things you need to say to her then try. Being alone is not always bad because it gives us a chance to look inside ourselves and figure out what we need and want. The fine line is when that turns to depression and you can\'t pull yourself out. I urge you to go to counseling if you are not already. I don\'t have insurance and have to pay out the nose, but it is THE BEST THING I HAVE DONE FOR MYSELF (except for losing weight).
You have a friend in me and for some of the worst reasons in the world we were brought together. But I am here.
We all go about our lives never stopping to see what is there around us. Routine sets in and people and things are just there...and overlooked. It is not right, but is human and a normal occurrence. Don\'t regret past mistakes, don\'t kick yourself for being \"human\" and\"normal\"..LEARN .
Look around you today...Find joy in all you have today...appreciate what is now , and never take for granted that it will be there tomorrow...treasure family, friends, a roof over your head, food in your belly, a job, the birds songs, the air you breathe,the ability to see, hear, speak, walk, talk, love, whatever you have or are able to experience...treasure it all !
Tomorrow will come and things may change...but look around you then and treasure what gifts you have THEN too.
None of us can know what tomorrow will bring, and none of us can know what tomorrow \"may\" take away...appreciate today and all it offers you...
LEARN from your past...don\'t LIVE in your past.If you do,today and tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come, will be wasted away. At the end of your life you will be left with a whole lot of regret and very few joys to reflect on.You are my friend, and I want you to know I appreciate and treasure you in my life today !!
Hugging you my friend...from Susan