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I have recently realized that I am a "hoarder". I was brought up this way, as m;y mother, and her father and mother, as well as many other members of the family are also (or were also) hoarders.It's...

On August 31st I went to Portland to see the judge regarding my disability claim to SSI, which I had applied for in June 2009, and which had been denied based upon 2 so called "medical experts" who...

I am on my 3rd psychologist, my 3rd primary care physician, and have spent years trying to get proper treatment for myself.It is nearly impossible to find a psychiatrist in the state of...

I went to the surgeon for a follow up on Friday, and he said that the swelling should have gone down by now, so I must have a spinal fluid leak. This was suggested to me right after I left the...

I have a follow up with the surgeon that screwed rods to my spine today. It is over a 2 hour ride to get there, so I have to leave really soon. The appointment is for only a few minutes, so the day...

Last night I could not sleep because the conversation with the doctor once again raced repeatedly through my mind. I have to get a new doctor, which I knew anyway, because I need to find one that...

I have switched to Prozac. When I was on Prozac I was sort of ok, and now I'm not. SO I asked the obnoxious doctor to prescribe prozac, and she did.I am afraid that these doctors are going to kill...

I am so tired. I just can't seem to sleep at night or stay awake during the day. I try to do things, but end up hurting so much that I have to lie down. When I get up I feel terrible. Grrr.Have to go...

I took a trunk load of stuff to the dump yesterday, and have a box of beads (another "hobby") in the trunk with a destination in mind. My nephew (the lesbian) wants the beads. I also gathered...

I haven't slept well for days now, and I have alot of energy that is keeping me from sleeping or concentrating. I've gone manic again.I've decided to get rid of the excess junk that I've collected,...

When I was a kid, my mother had Easter dinner for the grandparents and great uncle/aunts. Surrounded by these people, who were then about the age I am now, was difficult because we had to "behave...

I went to visit my family in RI this week and now I remember why I wanted to leave in the first place. My family drives me crazy!When I'm around them my time is not my own - I cannot make plans...

For the first time in my life, I have had to go on public assistance. Never knew what it was like until I moved up here to Maine. Well, I saw what my daughter went through, but never had first hand...

While I am still recovering from the spinal surgery, and will be for a few more months, I have alot of time to sit here and think - which is never, ever a good thing for me.I watched an HBO...

I find myself annoyed. I am annoyed at my brother. I am annoyed at my daughter. I am annoyed at the town I live in, my neighbors (who are seriously boundry challenged), and generally annoyed at the...