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When I was a kid, my mother had Easter dinner for the grandparents and great uncle/aunts. Surrounded by these people, who were then about the age I am now, was difficult because we had to "behave...

I went to visit my family in RI this week and now I remember why I wanted to leave in the first place. My family drives me crazy!When I'm around them my time is not my own - I cannot make plans...

For the first time in my life, I have had to go on public assistance. Never knew what it was like until I moved up here to Maine. Well, I saw what my daughter went through, but never had first hand...

While I am still recovering from the spinal surgery, and will be for a few more months, I have alot of time to sit here and think - which is never, ever a good thing for me.I watched an HBO...

I find myself annoyed. I am annoyed at my brother. I am annoyed at my daughter. I am annoyed at the town I live in, my neighbors (who are seriously boundry challenged), and generally annoyed at the...

I have been rejected all of my life. I realized today that these two actors that I really don't like (who have similar physical charactoristics) remind me of one of the guys that rejected me.I was...

Today I got a bill from the surgeon's office for the consultation. It looks like the surgeon doesn't take Mainecare and I will not be able to have the surgery without giving up everything including a...

In September 2010 I changed my PCP because my former PCP was not up to the task. She had made several mistakes, not the least of which was diagnosing my pneumonia as  sudden onset Asma and...

I have been "disabled" for 2 years now. My only income, other than an adoption support check from the state of RI and TANF from the state of Maine, has been a pathetic amount from an Ebay store,...

I've been out of work for almost 5 years now. My anxiety/depression has been so severe that I cannot concentrate or focus and I've been having alot of panic attacks. I'm fairly certain that I am...

I always develop a screaming need to be somewhere else. Even when I go to the supermarket, after a while I really, really, really need to go home. I've learned to shop very quickly.My friend asked me...

November 2008 I got a job at the Dollar Tree working part time. They kicked me off Welfare and food stamps, even though I was making a fraction of what I'd been collecting and it shouldn't have...

I've been sick for so long I can't stand it. This pneumonia is dragging on now nearly a month.I have things to do. Can't do much, because I am getting dizzy from lack of air.I remember being able to...

WebMD said that pneumonia takes 2 to 3 weeks to clear up. It has been 4 days since the anti-biotics were finished, and I'm much better, but still sick. Sickness like this makes me more depressed,...

I'm sitting here today, almost recovered from pneumonia, overwhelmed. Couldn't even say for sure what I'm feeling, but it is consuming me.I'm worried that my plan to move back home is just part of my...