Manic leanings this week
I haven't slept well for days now, and I have alot of energy that is keeping me from sleeping or concentrating. I've gone manic again.
I've decided to get rid of the excess junk that I've collected, and have made a trip to the dump already. I sorted through the beads last night and put a whole box into the trunk.
I have more cloth to go through and more yarn. Then there is the embroidery floss and candle molds. Then there is the sewing and needlepoint supplies. If I can sell some I can get some money together to buy some paint and house cosmetic supplies and maybe list this house and get the heck out of here.
They have put off my court date for SSI until about July, according to my lawyer, and I hold no hopes that this will be successful. I can't even concentrate long enough to finish more than this type of blog yet I may need to start searching for a job. Have no confidence that I can do a job. None whatsoever.
While I'm working on that, I need to find a new doctor because I really don't like my new doctor. 6 months is enough. I need someone that is going to properly medicate me because I cannot stand this. My mind is everywhere and I have limited control over my actions. This is no way to live.
She put me on Lithium in October and is supposed to be monitoring my levels but has yet to do it. It could be very bad if my levels go too high -it could fry my kidneys and cause the ibuprophen to create toxins in my system. WHen she saw the bi-polar diagnosis, she said "you and everybody else" then waived it off as if it were nothing when it has destroyed my life. I need someone who will at the very least take the condition seriously.
On another note I need someone that will consider my OCD because that was not included in my diagnosis before, but I have symptoms. I am a hoarder. I hate being a hoarder because too much stuff overwhelms and confuses me to the point that I cannot function. I'm not to the level that they are doing the shows on tv about - I've never been buried in it, but it is bad enough that it is definately a problem.
I'm so messed up and running out of resources and hope.
I've decided to get rid of the excess junk that I've collected, and have made a trip to the dump already. I sorted through the beads last night and put a whole box into the trunk.
I have more cloth to go through and more yarn. Then there is the embroidery floss and candle molds. Then there is the sewing and needlepoint supplies. If I can sell some I can get some money together to buy some paint and house cosmetic supplies and maybe list this house and get the heck out of here.
They have put off my court date for SSI until about July, according to my lawyer, and I hold no hopes that this will be successful. I can't even concentrate long enough to finish more than this type of blog yet I may need to start searching for a job. Have no confidence that I can do a job. None whatsoever.
While I'm working on that, I need to find a new doctor because I really don't like my new doctor. 6 months is enough. I need someone that is going to properly medicate me because I cannot stand this. My mind is everywhere and I have limited control over my actions. This is no way to live.
She put me on Lithium in October and is supposed to be monitoring my levels but has yet to do it. It could be very bad if my levels go too high -it could fry my kidneys and cause the ibuprophen to create toxins in my system. WHen she saw the bi-polar diagnosis, she said "you and everybody else" then waived it off as if it were nothing when it has destroyed my life. I need someone who will at the very least take the condition seriously.
On another note I need someone that will consider my OCD because that was not included in my diagnosis before, but I have symptoms. I am a hoarder. I hate being a hoarder because too much stuff overwhelms and confuses me to the point that I cannot function. I'm not to the level that they are doing the shows on tv about - I've never been buried in it, but it is bad enough that it is definately a problem.
I'm so messed up and running out of resources and hope.
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