Richeart
Status: Self-awareness is the beginning of all wisdom. Loving of "what is", is the path for recovery from the codependency addiction.
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I'm looking forward to next Tuesday. Despite what my DS Goal says, I actually quit drinking on Feb. 10th last year so my anniversary is coming up. Things are really good at the moment, so I'm...
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Go Cardinals! Go Steelers! (Either one would be fine with me.) Rich
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Now I'm beginning to wonder if the abandonment feeling has been causing all my avoidance of writing my resume' and applying for jobs. Fear of rejection seems awfully close to fear of abandonment. If...
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As I try to feel more, and it's not that easy to break the old habits, I happened on this feeling: "I" am the one who left me! I abandoned me. I was taught, somehow (no blame), that My needs and...
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Since shame is the cause of the codependency, I picked up my copy of Bradshaw's "Healing the Shame That Binds You", to review it. These things stood out: "Shame-based people are always addicted...
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A corollary to yesterday's entry is the effect and affect of abandonment in the Codependency cycle. The feelings of abandonment created by an alcoholic or addictive parent cause shame also; that the...
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The book was emotinally disturbing. Yesterday was extremely difficult. The feelings hit me hard. I will try to synthesize what I've learned so far. Codependency is based on shame. This is how it...
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[I've been enjoying a great conversation with Dave on his Journal, and learning a lot by trying to teach. By teaching I learn myself.]Going back to my last entry and the "Everything can't be that...
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I'm just catching on to the idea that I am under so much stress due to allergies. Physically I am feeling "sick"; my stomach feels empty and my neck is killing me. I finally realized it was...
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(But then painful is a step up from anxiety, for me. It's more 'present' than 'future'.)This "learning to express my feelngs truthfully" actually requires me to know and feel what I'm feeling, which...
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So I was cleaning out files from my phone and I ran into one I hadn’t read in a while. It was notes I entered while reading Fritz Perls’ book on Gestalt principles, and it has made a big impact...
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This is a copy of an e-mail I sent to a close friend this morning. I think it speaks to both my co-dependency and shyness concerns. I thought it may have value for my DS friends too.RichToday's...
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I experienced an interesting awareness first thing this morning. My undirected thinking, an almost meditative "blank slate" open awareness state allowed my mind to reveal some interesting...
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The book I am currently reading was getting pretty boring and I was about to stop reading it when I got a tremendous synchronistic shot-in-the-arm! I read into a section about codependency that...
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My supervisor suggested I get and read two books, and I have. And I have made notes and condensed one for my continuous reading. The two books are by Pema Chodron, a Budhist nun and after reading...
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