I truly appreciate the journal comments.  I have been keeping my own written diaries since childhood and it is really neat to have peoples supportive perspective and understanding. I spent yesterday in bed with TV - I watched 3 movies in a row! Plus a few one hour programs!  Let me say it was nice - I haven't done that in a long time.  I did walk doggie and went to a volunteer work meeting.  Not the best way to cope. Today I took myself on two walks - one with doggie - I have felt like staying in bed the since Friday - and pretty much did that all I could until today.  Dealing with a little depression - had some grey skies for the first time this season, and I guess just realizing my isolation.  The walks helped a lot, which is why I made myself do it.  Funny I've been neglecting my nightly yoga, surely that has an influence, as I try to do it regularly. I feel like I am picky when I complain that my phone doesn't ring - I occasionally reach out, and just feel like if people don't reach back, then I give up.  I know no ones perfect - it may or may not have to do with me.  I'm grateful for my online friendships here and in email, and rarely on Myspace. Anyway I am kind of developing a new friendship with a woman at AA, which is nice.  She asked if she could pray with me - she could tell something was wrong.  Anyway that is real nice :) Mr I don't know was there today.  I didn't tell him "I'm not ready to date".  I didn't even get that "vibe" from him today.  I know there is a fondness for him in some ways, but a lack of trust, understandably - I haven't known him long enough to trust him!  Anyway he sent some photos which was neat - we walked around the botanical gardens on Friday and he took some photos. I love my thrift store dress and the matching shoes (pictured). I think, could I just keep him as a friend, and ask him to keep his sex talk to himself????????  I'm not sure what I'll do.  He's an artist, and I wouldn't mind letting him draw me - I love modeling and I like collecting images, used to be into it, and I know this is probably asking too much to risk this and consider myself doing something "healthy" for me.  Sigh. Started psychology independent study class of  two students tonight.  We'll meet twice a week.  Finally - I get to teach a class for the 2nd time! (after 4+ different classes since June, what a relief).  So now I don't have to spend the hours of time to learn the subject and prepare, and feel a little more competent.  I'm excited and feeling confident and challenged - which is  good :)