As I get through this psychology class and more into the "meat" of the subject, it is quite neat.  I see the prepared final they have for us and how it doesn't fairly represent the scope of the material in our text, and I wonder if teaching is something I'd like to continue maybe in a better institution (it's a career college and has it's shortcomings. Don't we all!) Funny I'm a big fan of New Life Ministries ( newlife.com ) and they are in need financially so I looked for the envelope to send them something, and found a letter I didn't know I had for some seasonal temp work in Novemember, so I sent off a fax that I'm available.  I sealed the newlife envelope with a letter and said I give knowing I may not have a job after next week, in faith, knowing God provides. So then the phone rings and it's my temp agency, who I haven't had contact with in 6 months, asking if I'm available for a position at a place they had me before (when I first found DS last year, as a matter of fact).  It could lead to permanent and starts after my job ends.  WOW.  (office work - dad is sort of scoffing at me but I said I have to live this life.  He was proud of me for teaching.  Counselor says to look at the source - he's a gambling addict, so what do I care about his approval.  It still hurts some)  So I reopen the envelope to write a "PS" in the letter and reseal it, and the phone rings.  It is another place where I do on call temp work who I haven't contacted in about 5 months, and she wants to refer me to someone for some temporary work there at the local private college. WOW.  So I reopened the letter again to write a "PPS" about the developments and just be grateful. I feel a little under the weather.  I've enjoyed my noon meetings and am trying to go all I can.  I've been having coffee versus a real lunch, odd for me.  I don't know if my schedule will change and I won't be able to attend the noon meetings.  I got a little crush on a new guy.  He's from the area and just moved back from out of state.  I had a feeling right away and funny enough the more I know him the more I can see why I had that feeling, and how surprized I am.  Anyway go S-L-O-W. Anyway the "it's calleda  breakup because it's broken" book said to get a couple pictures, best & worse, of the ex to paste on a notebook to write about what I'll miss and won't or something.  I had to stop there last night and pause, and today I printed out the photos.  WILLINGNESS.  It is hard going through this breakup, and to think it started over a year ago and I'd asked him to leave me alone... this time I mean it and he is leaving me alone for now - I just have to keep deleting his messages if he does contact me because it is too hard and it's like ripping off the delicate scab as I heal. Looks like an easy day at school as most students will be at the local fair on a fieldtrip, and the rest of us will watch a movie, so I don't have lesson plans to do.  Funny my sis works there and I got a call from her yesterday that woke me up asking if I could sub an unfamiliar class for a sick teacher - NO - I need to learn how to say no.  I said I'm not that flexible with subbing for classes I'm not familiar with. Got a big bag of clothes to donate.  I'm growing out of some of them.  Change is good.  Sigh