No ice cream tonight, after about a week of either ice cream or cookies nightly - a lot of it.  Funny the local ice cream place is closing down tonite (rent increase). Ex is still persistently calling and leaving messages.  Don't have to worry about checking texts - removed that feature.  Who knows if he's sending those.  He is calling a lot.  I finally ERASED his messages without having listened to them - I've NEVER erased anyones messages without listening to them.  In reading journal from last year, I see the abuse and how awful it was - all verbal and emotional and all painful. Counseling tomorrow. I am feeling stressed about schedule.  Class prep takes more time than it seems I have, and now I'm helping out the English teacher by basically doing teacher's aid stuff, so I will get paid more hours. Something bugged me as some other teachers are taking a field trip with my students who are in their class, and I'd rather not go, and I feel some pressure and inconvenience, as it will throw off my lesson plan.   The way things are around there, as soon as I get used to something, it changes.  This is God's way of reminding me HE is in control. Funny Mr New just completely ignores me now, which is ok, but hurts a little.  I don't know why, even though I can't be bothered - maybe that vibe rubbed off on him? Parents will be back in a week. I've gotten used to having place to myself.  Losing computer access is probably the biggest inconvenience as Dad is addicted to it (it's his).