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I am so glad that 2015 is almost over. Just 5 hours to go! I will remember 2015 with happiness, sadness, and hate. I may not have liked many of the things that happened but I don't regret them. I...

This journal entry is just a bit of a vent. Everything I did yesterday morning to calm myself while feeling very panicky didn't work. So off to the hospital emerg I went. After two ECGS, and two...

So tonight has not been a good night at all. Coming home from town and the closer we got the worse I felt. All because I knew my brother in law would be drunk by the time we got back and it was...

I have been home now for 3 months and lots has happened. One included a trip to the emergency room. Everything turned out to be fine physically with me, but those darn anxiety attacks wouldn't go...

Haven't written in awhile. I have been managing okay until yesterday when I found out a good family friend is really sick and today went to get things changed over. Ran into problem after problem....

Had a semi bad (if any are ever semi bad) panic attack this morning. I forced my self to go with my husband to pick up our daughter. Wondering if this is ever going to end! And to boot we are staying...

I have been back home now for 4 1/2 days now. Feels good but some of the old issues are creeping back. 2 attacks but I am working through them.

Well all the packing and most of our belongings are loaded and ready to go. It has been an interesting day. Today is the second day med free and I thought I was going to have to take something after...

I haven't been here much lately so much going on. My oldest daughters graduation from high school, cleaning , packing and getting ready for the move back to our home province. Also I have decided to...

I am really trying to stay calm. I have calming music playing in the back ground as I type.  I have had a few thoughts go through my mind that I have had to push away because deep down I know they...

Today I woke up with a nasty headache, took med for it but just didn't seem to want to go away. The headache lasted all day and has made me very tired. Also the numbness is back in my right pinky...

Not sure what the heck is or was going on but all of a sudden the heart started racing, started to feel warm, palms get clamy l, shackey and I wanted to escape where I was. Don't know what I was...

No I am not a big Star Wars fan but my husband and youngest daughter are. I just thought I would write a little before I go out for a walk.I am feeling good today. Managed to do some cleaning, took...

It's Friday!  Where oh where has the week gone?  It has gone by so quickly.  So many changes happening over the next 2 months but I am choosing to stay in the present and not look to far...

It was a gloomy day most of the day. That's okay we could use some rain. I did manage to get out for a small walk, still to cold to walk in the rain here. The sun is now shinning so the mood is...