meandthebeast
Status: Back in the black hole.. I hate this.. Someone, anyone.. Help me!!!!!!
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Ok, two days sober and not even a thought about drinking. I know two days isnt much but just wait.. I know I can do it this time.. lol.. really though.. I fell stronger this time. If not I will start...
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Well, I really hate to admit this but I messed up on New Years Eve and had drinks.. Many drinks and felt horrible the next day. I am not going to beat myself up although I am not proud. I am starting...
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It shows one day sober but I am really 13 days sober.. yahooooooo
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Well Christmas is over and now waiting for the new year.. I think it will be a good one.I recieved a small inheritance in April of this year from my ex-huband. (he never changed his will, lol)....
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Sober now for 12 days. It has been real hard for the holidays. If I do not stay sober I will die.. Baby steps. Baby steps..
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Living here in Utah, when it dumps snow it dumps it hard and cold and it freezes.On my way to work today, on the freeway a your oriental kid had slid off the side of the road trying to avoid a car...
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Well well well. Where do I begin. What a big freaking ass-a-nine alcoholic I have been.Went to Las Vegas to win big money (lol). Instead I lost myself, I lost by BF and made my son so disapointed in...
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Las Vegas here I come.. OMG, I know I am going to lose money that I will sorry for so I am positive thinkin right now, its not going to bother me.. lolIt will be good for Al to get away and not...
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My ole mans dog (and mine for three years) died Friday. He has been crying ever since. If we go out to do things he gets his mind off of it but when we get back home, its back to the tears.Baby was...
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Well its Tuesday and I havent written for awhile so guess I better.Saturday was a very horrible day for me but I didnt get drunk all weekend.. Yahoo. Al and I were very busy on Saturday, running...
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Well I thought things were going to be awful when I got home because I cried and whined all the way home. Instead of picking up the booze, I grabbed a big old rake, shovel and a wheel barrow and...
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Well today was the day I really came out of the closet.. No silly not that closet. But I am finally admitting to being an alcoholic and its the hardest thing, even harder then depression to deal...
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Well here I am, its Monday. I missed a whole week because I was so freaking down. You name it I had it. Depression, anxiety, panic attacks and alcohol... Oh my hell, I am finally admitting that I am...
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Well made it though the weekend ok. Went to dinner with the ole man and some friends. Had a couple more drinks then I should have and then that puts me on a guilt trip. Why do I think I need to have...
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