somethingmissing

    the red face isn't for anything with depression, its anger. anger that people here look at one side and think they know everything. somebody sent the girl i call my daughter and she looks to...

 i came here to DS because i didn't have anyone that could understand my depression or what was the cause. usually a person with children cant understand the missing feeling another might have.i...

   can't ever remember missing seeing you on your special day. guess theres always a first time . hope you've settled into a routine where you are and that you are all together. sorry i know you...

   it's been 4 weeks today. odd how it seems longer yet at the same time i feel like i just talked to her yesterday. still wondering why things go in the directions they do. a friend wrote not to...

buried her yesterday. no feelings right now. dont know if thats because im that tired or that drained. still cant sleep.heart racing, not even moving, just lying here listening to the trains nearby....

  was a long day, but it has come to an end. hope i have half her strenght, fought for a week after we knew. fought for 26 months after she knew. now shes at peace. took 16 years but shes back with...

  stronger then even i thought, or just trying to get back at me for something. OK i pushed his foot thru the window, you always wondered how that window broke. now please rest and go to slleep. its...

   not a very good day.had to do a DNR for my mother today. said goodbye and whispered in her ear that it was ok if she went to sleep. all would be fine. 5 hours now and organs are starting to...

       was starting to do better, now two people i care greatly about are in such pain. if either should read this no you did not cause my pain. mine has been there for many years. wishing all...

   hope all had a bearable day. should say happy, but sometimes just hope we all get thru them . guess holidays are the hardest. i guess i am lucky in a way since i kinda know whats causing my...

  usually start going downhill before holidays start,not this time. got thru thanksgiving fine it was the day after that sucked. still don't know what happened half way thru the day it just started...

      this is a strange place i'm in here. in what everybody considers the "real world" you can pretty much count on being hurt. at least most times you can see it coming. here in this place...

  i've never had a outlet like this to say this before but it has always been felt. i know in my heart that you would have grown into a fine young adult. i would have devoted everything to you. i...

its only been 2hours and a few drinks but it seems to gon down hill even more. i don't fit in in.people tell me guys arn't  supposed to want kids thats what women want. maybe thats my problem. next...

had to deal with a insentive person today. keep on thinking or telling myself that they don't understand my problem so i must ignore it. she had her grandson with her so it's kinda hard to...