SearchingAndWaiting

Words are futile to convey what the heart feels.

So, this is how it is now? In such despair, and with such loneliness, in large part from finding out that there's almost no one out there who feels as I do. Who felt it right to wait, and so,...

Please, please let me find someone. Please.Someone who hasn't done it, either.I can't stand it. I can't wait. I don't want to wait anymore. I mean, in principle, of course... I do.But practically,...

I try to meditate, but there’s so much sadness and despair.I want to write, but there’s so much pain; it’s too difficult to get past.Were that a force bigger than I would come in and pull me...

I had a bad date tonight. I knew it would be bad before I went out with her, because our last date was bad. I just was desperate to be with SOMEONE... so I went out with her. I need safety. I need...

I don't want to know sex for the first time with someone who has already known it from someone else :-(. It has to be... has to be that we're both getting enlightened from the other person.It has to...

I think if I weren't going through a time of depression, I'd feel happier tonight. That's not meant to be funny; it's an explanation of a kind of "glass ceiling" that constrains me now...

I feel so bad it's almost like I'm emotionally dead. Someone please help.

I've meditated on 30 of the last 34 evenings :-).

Raw hurtUnencumbered by thoughtStop      Realize            StillExperience feeling      with no movement

"Looking for G-d in a girl"TouchSensitiveFirst timeAwaiting my first timeTouch    Spark        Wild    PreciousAway in an ethereal placeYou stand with meWith a look that conveys seas of...

I’m traveling in some combination of New York City and Paris. I’m going through stores, maybe shopping malls, and streets. It’s a rich landscape.I keep meeting friends/acquaintances/former...