Alliegator

I ate SO FREAKIN' MUCH today.  I couldn't stop.  I wanted to stick to my diet today.  But dance class got canceled and there was cake and ice cream and brownies.  Now I gave in and got wine and a...

I feel fat and depressed and ugly.

I feel forgotten.  Eddie is already over me.  My department at work goes out and doesn't invite me.  All of my friends on DS are gone.  Some of my friends here miss the "old me" and don't think...

You promised me we would spend the rest of our lives together.  And then you broke that promise.  I will always hate you for that.  We can still be friends and I still care about you but for that...

Why the fuck did I just eat that?  I was doing so well.  Stupid pizza.  And now I have a ton of left overs that I will just end up eating.  I had lost weight and now it is all going ot come...

I have been exercising more regularly lately and eating fairly well.  I'm trying to lose some weight and get back in shape.  It sucks because I can't weigh myself without triggering major anorexic...

I am trying to eat better.  I am good about having healthy things in my house and packing healthy lunches to work.  The problem is when I go out to eat or there are cookies lying around the...

I want to get engaged. My boyfriend and I know we are going to get married and we talk about it all the time.  I want to get engaged now.  he can't afford the ring yet and I know there really...

I don't have my regular journal with me as I am on vacation, so I will write my nightly journal on here.Yesterday was the GRE.  I am so glad it is finally over!!!  I am actually quite pleased with...

I'm fat.  I feel bad that I have let my bf down by being gross.  He tells me I am beautiful but I think he is lying.

I have been pretty good today.  I had a minor bit of anxiety at work, but after about an hour it was gone.  I am worried about when I go to bed though.  Everything gets worse at night, and laying...

It hurts it hurts it hurts.  I am trying so desperately to find something to grab onto.  Pull me out of this.  Pull me up please.

I haven't felt this down and overwhelmed in a very very long time.  I don't know what to do with all of this emotional pain I am dealing with.  It just hurts.  I am having panic attacks pretty...

I'm trying to lose some weight.  It has actually been working a little.  I don't know how much I see the results but the scale says it is coming off little by little.  I wish I could be a little...

I am so fucking fat.  I don't know how I could possibly have let this happen to me.  Since November I have gained so much weight.  My butt and hips like exploded.  I don't fit in my clothes very...