Alliegator

I can't seem to stop crying.  The littlest things will send me into tears.  I sob every day even though I am happy.  I just don't understand what is going on!

I don't understand why I keep getting depressed lately.  I know it is winter which is hard for me but I have such a good life going on right now that I feel like I should be happy.  My boyfriend is...

My best friend is annoying me so much lately.  I just can't handle her not eating and everything.  There are a lot of other little things that just piss me off for some reason.  I don't understand...

I am sooooo confused.  And stressed.

starting tomorrow I am going to get back on track.  I am going to start eating more regularly and stop drinking sooooo much.  I have really pushed my limits lately and it has to be really bad for...

I think that deep down in my heart I am a party girl.  I have to control that so much because of school and my friends but whenever I am in the perfect situation it always comes out hard core.  I...

Sorry I have been sort of MIA lately.  I have been pretty busy and exhausted. I think I might be on the edge of hypomania so I will potentially be very active soon. 

I hate guilt.

Why do I keep doing these things to myself?  I am a horrible friend.

I am so annoyed.  Why can't I just have my Ambien?  I can't sleep other wise!  This Lunesta crap doesn't do shit for me.  I hate not being able to sleep.  I just lie there staring at the wall...

I can't f-ing believe it! My friend Chris and I have a long history of talking about our problems. He is severely depressed and suicidal, he cuts and might have BPD. Long story short we got in a...

I really want to get in shape when I get back home.  I wish the gym wasn't sooooo far away.  I have to walk a mile just to get there and it is HOT outside.  I am going to try to make myself do it...

I am doing really well here in Vegas.  I have felt happy and stable the whole time.  I am a little worried that when I get back home to the stress it won't be so smooth sailing.  I am trying not...

I'm getting antsy.  It has been so long since I have had a little fun.  I miss the parties and the guys but I know it is a huge trigger for me.  I go hypomanic almost instantly.  Ugh.

Sorry I haven't been around as much the past two days.  I had finals and then I had to pack up and move.  Now I'm on vacation so I don't know how much I will be on but I haven't forgotten about you...