Alliegator

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hooray!

Made it to another meeting today

I need to start this again.  I don't really know how to measure it, but I'll try.

I'm kind of thinking about suicide again.  I don't really have a fail-proof plan, so I doubt I will go through with anything.  If only I had enough pills...  Then again they say that doesn't...

I'M DISGUSTING.  I HAVE BEEN DOING SO WELL ON MY DIET AND NOW I AM RUINING EVERYTHING.  I need to stop stuffing my fat ass face.  I want to die.

I ate SO FREAKIN' MUCH today.  I couldn't stop.  I wanted to stick to my diet today.  But dance class got canceled and there was cake and ice cream and brownies.  Now I gave in and got wine and a...

I feel fat and depressed and ugly.

I feel forgotten.  Eddie is already over me.  My department at work goes out and doesn't invite me.  All of my friends on DS are gone.  Some of my friends here miss the "old me" and don't think...

You promised me we would spend the rest of our lives together.  And then you broke that promise.  I will always hate you for that.  We can still be friends and I still care about you but for that...

Why the fuck did I just eat that?  I was doing so well.  Stupid pizza.  And now I have a ton of left overs that I will just end up eating.  I had lost weight and now it is all going ot come...

I have been exercising more regularly lately and eating fairly well.  I'm trying to lose some weight and get back in shape.  It sucks because I can't weigh myself without triggering major anorexic...

I am trying to eat better.  I am good about having healthy things in my house and packing healthy lunches to work.  The problem is when I go out to eat or there are cookies lying around the...

I want to get engaged. My boyfriend and I know we are going to get married and we talk about it all the time.  I want to get engaged now.  he can't afford the ring yet and I know there really...

I don't have my regular journal with me as I am on vacation, so I will write my nightly journal on here.Yesterday was the GRE.  I am so glad it is finally over!!!  I am actually quite pleased with...