GuyInDarkness
Status: looking up at the sky
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- I haven't been on this site in awhile. feeling lost more. I don't even know really what to write. each day is just going by faster and faster. I see the people around me, their lives are progressing as mine is staying locked up in the past. I've...
- It's a new year but yet I still feel lost inside. I've moved I've left the city that has been haunting me. Still inside I feel the pain of the dagger it put in me. I'm going to school again, being more active than I have been in past. I want this...
- How do I start this, it's been 11 months since I've stopped communicating with my ex she's made no attempt to contact me, I've made none to contact her. We were together for about 4 years. Those years I thought I had found the love of my life, noted...
- seems like this dark lonely void, is my only companion in life. to strength to try and reach out just seem to fade as each day passes. i'm not sure how long i can keep going on living with this void. depression. loneliness.. there my only friends i...
- It seems each day it's getting harder to breath. It's like I'm stuck in a cycle, if I try and break the cycle I'm just hurt over and over. I try putting on a fake smile trying to make each day happier then the last. But it's always the same outcome....
- i feel that urge that i felt month ago.. feeling like im slipping back into that dark void. i cant sleep, cant eat, cant escape life at all. just want to rip these stiches off my arm, and finish what i started.. im so tired. my heart, or the empty...
- im feeling the urges to just call it quits again, that feeling is back. i just keep looking at my arm, just teling me this be better choice then this sad excuse of life... idk what to think. my mind is just blank.i cant seem to be happy in an...
- How come i still have these feelings for her, she hurt me, broke me down. and she is already moving on. she out partying hooking up and has new guy. i shouldnt give a shit!! i just want to be over her. my life already in a hell state. so why cant i...
- Well managed to get my hands on bottle of Jameson and pack of stone ipa. Goodnight day. Weren't that great anyway
- time seems to not be moving, i feel like im in a weird state of frozen time. days seem all bunched up. no matter what i do i cant seem to escape this. maybe i should just accept my fate of this not be happy, or feeling warm again. every time i try...
- I see that I'm probably meant to be alone... My heart is nothing but pain torn into pieces of nothing.. I can find urge to be happy... Everyday seems the same. I'm so tired of the pain. Tired of living in this void of never ending darkness that just...
- well its been about almost 3 months.. cant stop thinking about her..i know that i should... should keep my days busy... she already has a new guy. sucks the city i live in.. having to see her everywhere i go... friends telling me how crazy she...
- trying to figure out ways to be happy.. cant seem to find it.. maybe im not ment to be.. not like the last few years have giving me a break. i cant seem to enjoy myself with anything.. everyday seems like it only last a second. i feel like im...
- feeling bit ashamed at myself. finish 2 pack so cigarettes in a day. i truly feel like i have no one i can connect to in this world. the little friends that remain, and the family that i have. they don't understand.. going to group therapy sessions...
- I really thought this year might be different then the previous years. Had high hopes for it.. Seems that this void just never ends...having my heart broken and stab again. Having to live with the fact that no happiness comes to my life. Trying to...