I haven't been on this site in awhile. feeling lost more. I don't even know really what to write. each day is just going by faster and faster. I see the people around me, their lives are progressing as mine is staying locked up in the past. I've tried moving forward being more positive with life, but i couldn't lie to the way i felt inside for long. was like holding my breath for months. a painful feeling. i feel like i'm trapped in a void and no one can here me or help. I've lost most contact with friends. i just feel lost and misplaced in this world. I'm tired. tired of having hope that things will get better and progress... anything i try to do to achieve happiness. always something happens that knocks me back down into my void. it's like a never ending rollarcoaster just won't stop. time and time again i've tried. i'm starting to think life just wants me to be in this void and call it quits. not like that would be a bad thing. see's much more peaceful then this life. least i'd think it be. and if not... I dont know what im talking about on here. just writing what my mind thinks. anyways...till next time.. ~ A