Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
It seems each day it's getting harder to breath. It's like I'm stuck in a cycle, if I try and break the cycle I'm just hurt over and over. I try putting on a fake smile trying to make each day happier then the last. But it's always the same outcome. My life and everything that's around me doesn't want me to be happy or even try to find happiness. Each second that goes by I just think ending it is the best choice for me. Talking with family or whatever friends around. Talking to doctors or therapists. It just seems like a waste. Each night trying to sleep I have nightmares that wake me up. I use to look at my dreams as an escape but now I lost that to. I remmeber when life use to be easy. When I actually did have a real smile. But the memory of those times is becoming more of a blur each day. I'm in a huge world full if people. Yet I feel like I'm alone. Maybe ending it I will find peace. Death can't be much Worser then life. This dark void. Just wont let me go. Living without happiness. Living in this grey diluted world is tiring...
What used to bring you happiness?
Sometimes it helps to 'force' things that used to be enjoyable, but aren't anymore...once you're into it, doing something, you might find that you're actually having fun :)
Also, you don't mention if you're on any medications or trying anything like diet, exercise, alternative medicine...that stuff can be life-changing, it's different for everybody but you never know...
It's not a waste...your life, I mean...no life is a waste, even when it feels like it is...have you mentioned that you're thinking like this to your therapist? Even if you're not actively planning anything, it's a very dark place to be, and it tends to feed off itself, if that makes sense. Please do something to shake this out of your head before it gets worse, okay?
Coming here and talking about it is a huge step...and I hope you get some brightness soon...peace
Then look for things that make you happy, or used to make you happy, and get them into your life. Allow yourself to be happy if only for a few moments. Then work on making those moments longer and more frequent.
There is always a way. The people here have worked hard, and many of us have found ways to be happy.
Come share, and we will all help each other get out of that nasty pit.
Gentle hugs.