I really thought this year might be different then the previous years. Had high hopes for it.. Seems that this void just never ends...having my heart broken and stab again. Having to live with the fact that no happiness comes to my life. Trying to kill myself.. I just can't seem to escape life. I'm not happy. I honestly feel that I have no urge to keep going. Yet even when I tried calling it quits it didn't work. Why is it that I'm spared when other where able to escape. Last few years I've just grown tired and tired of life.. I'm to point I can't even get decent nights sleep, waking up dealing with anxiety to the point where I think I'm going to die. Talking to family I can't I can't express my feelings for there in pain as well, and I refuse to cause more. Even though they are upset with me trying to kill myself. It just seems that I'm ment to journey this life in this void that I'm in. I want to be free from this even if its just for a moment. I would Cheerish it... But yet whatever I wish for doesnt come true.. Only thing I have is this dark void...