dontletmego

Something else I noticed: My '2012' status says 'i guess everything's just gonna be alright'. And it is. It did turned out alright. I'm okay.

That was the last time I was here. Now, after almost three years, I found myself kind of lost again and remember this place, this website. This saved my life. If I hadn't had everything this gave to...

Some days ago I snaped and called my brain an asshole."WTF, brain, stop being such an asshole!"I was hurt, angry, frustrated, afraid, tortured, but suddenly, after I said that, I started laughing,...

I need to handle this a lot better. Tonight it was bad. I lost it, I cried and my mind just went blank and the suicide thoughts much stronger. I'm forced to realise some stuff, such as in order to...

You know, I have hurt myself emotionally for years, but only recently I started hurting myself phisically. It started with scratches, but I wasn't aware of that, so the real start was out of...

So i have been away for awhile mainly because I've gotten too frustrated. I did find medical attention, but it didn't work. It didn't work at all. He wasn't getting me, my therapist, I doubt he even...

I already found I psycologist, he is working for free and I know he is very kind for do that, but nothing really changed. It's actually worse. He only ask me questions, the same ones I'm tired to ask...

I have an appointment with the doctor tomorrow. I don't know him, I spook with the secretary, she was very kind, I was nervous and I'm worried I wasn't polite because I didn't talk more than the...

I see what one of my major problems is: I try to feel better, it works, but my family totally ruin it for me. In order to get better I have to stay away from them. They are one of those toxic people...

I'm sorry for the mistakes, but I don't have time to revise this. I fought with my father and he took the internet away. He doesn't know I'm depressed, he thinks I'm lazy and useless, he makes it all...

I have struggled with suicide thoughts again. I did tell you that I wasn't anymore, and that's true, but in the last few days I have resume idealising it. I don't want to say how exactly, but I just...

So went to the park with my two best friends today. It was a lot of fun, we took like a hundred photos, we kind of reconnect and we are planning many projects, so I'll see them a lot in the next...

Day 27th I have my appointment with the doctor. I'm happy I made it. Even if the clinic doesn't work out, I'm happy I was strong enough to do this. I'm not sleeping right anymore. I know that is...

I have no ideia about what is happening to me. I hope the clinic works out for me. I'm making myself to go on and live, I know I have to fight, everyone should fight for themselves, but there's this...

God, I really liked that movie. Made me very sad the first time I watched, because I didn't really understand what was going on with me. Now, it's kinda funny indeed. The things you don't see when...