livelovemusic01

So, I am 18, still living at home, but I am just about to move out in a couple weeks. I could honestly not be more excited, because it means that I finally get to take control and acknowledge my...

It has been a long time since I was last on here. I guess a lot has changed. I am not as bad as I was then. I no longer cut, I feel much happier, and I was diagnosed with Boarderline personality...

                                I, with my plumped, sad legs                        and my sad, sliced arms,                       and my saggy, baggy eyes, ...

                                I, with my plumped, sad legs                        and my sad, sliced arms,                       and my saggy, baggy eyes, ...

I started cutting again. It has been 3 months and then, I snapped, I was just sitting there and I suddenly knew that I HAD to cut, and it felt so good. I just sat there, bleeding, not even guilty....

That girl, from that previous entery. The one that I felt bad for hurting. Yesterday she tore up my heart into a billion tiny pieces and then threw me all over the place so I can't put myself back...

I haven't smoked for some time now. I want to...very badly. When I think about i get chills and urges. But I am trying not to. It's only going to mess with my work, my school and my family. I am...

So I met a girl. I actually met her on this site. And she was really nice. We had so much in common and i always got butterflys in my stomach when I talked to her. It didn't bother me that she lived...

I just ordered myself a newe piece in wich to smoke weed...I would sat that this is a downward spiral.

Maybe things are getting better? I guess I just don't know. I have sudden;y become racked with the urges to hurt myself. I rub at my arms with my nails, I pulls down them with pens, I scar myself....

I work right up against downtown Minneapolis and for those of you who don't live here there is a street called Lake Street, it's known to be one of the less savory places in Minneapolis, a poorer...

So the weight thing is actually going ok. I actually believe that I have started to lose some weight. With my job this summer I haven't had much time to lounge around the house and eat. I also have...

I guess in tis area things are going alright. I mean, late night snacks haven't really gone away but I have REALLY cut down my proportions and am trying to get better at sleeping. I'm going to a...

I just want everyone to know that I am doing ok. It has been over 3 months since I have cut myself, I still think about it, but I haven't acted on those thoughts. The only reason I'm having so much...

I think the reason that I am tired all of the time is because I am tired of carrying myself around. Of having to wake up every morning and tell myself that I will make it throuh this worthless...