I think the reason that I am tired all of the time is because I am tired of carrying myself around. Of having to wake up every morning and tell myself that I will make it throuh this worthless nightmare that I have been going through. I spot do not want to anymore. I want to lie down and close my eyes, I want to close them and not have to think about everything that hurts. And it really is true. Everything always hurts. All of the time. I can not lIft my head without having to think of every single PrOblem pouring down on me. I hate it. I hate life.