broken

That girl, from that previous entery. The one that I felt bad for hurting. Yesterday she tore up my heart into a billion tiny pieces and then threw me all over the place so I can't put myself back together. I opened myself up to her, I told her things that were hard for me to admit even to myself. And she destroyed me. I think I could have fallen in love with her. The sweet texts and the happiness she gave me. Now I can't even get out of bed long enough to go to the bathroom. I have to fake a smile and tell everyone I am fine. But I am so afraid to be left alone rgiht now. I actualy want tp be dead.