loveisnotenough

He finally sent me a text message yesterday after nearly a week.Things are fine there.  My response worked and the fact that what I said in my text was the past tense.  He said I did the right...

I'm barely eating.  I hate myself.  I smile all day and pretend I'm just too busy to eat.  I really am busy so that's not hard.I just feel so sick with what I've done.  Does he feel sick?  I'm...

I received a blocked call at 10pm last night.  I answered. No response.  Is it her?  Is it the wife?  Did she just want to hear my voice?Then the nightmares.....I had vivid dreams that their...

I feel sick.  I'm anxious.  I'm sad.  I'm completely lost.I just want him to hold me.  I want him to tell me it's ok.  I want him to tell me he is sorry for not letting me go.  I want him to...

I'm sitting here typing this from "your side" of my bed.  The bottle opener is still on the nightstand where you left it.  I have so many memories of us here.  It's been over 10 years and I can't...

Wow..... she sent me a text stating she is his wife and needs to know from me if anything is going on between us and to please respond with the truth.I freaked.  I kept thinking.....if I dont...

My worst fear realized.It wasn't a horrible text......I talked about him in the past tense.  I'm sure he could find something to say to get off the hook.  Maybe tell her I'm some crazy...

It's a new year.  But am I doing anything new?I've been reading over my last journal entries remembering the pain.  And yet- I am exactly right back where I was.  Still with him.Last week he told...

I saw him last weekend.  It was nice.  I know that's awful to say but it really was.I miss him.  There have been so many issues going on with me this week that I want to cry to him about.Instead...

I sent him an email that this is hard.He said email is safe.I'm so tempted to invite him over tomorrow night.  I've got to let this feeling pass.  It's good that we can't text anymore- it will cut...

He finally sent me a text message yesterday after nearly a week.Things are fine there.  My response worked and the fact that what I said in my text was the past tense.  He said I did the right...

I'm barely eating.  I hate myself.  I smile all day and pretend I'm just too busy to eat.  I really am busy so that's not hard.I just feel so sick with what I've done.  Does he feel sick?  I'm...

I received a blocked call at 10pm last night.  I answered. No response.  Is it her?  Is it the wife?  Did she just want to hear my voice?Then the nightmares.....I had vivid dreams that their...

I feel sick.  I'm anxious.  I'm sad.  I'm completely lost.I just want him to hold me.  I want him to tell me it's ok.  I want him to tell me he is sorry for not letting me go.  I want him to...

I'm sitting here typing this from "your side" of my bed.  The bottle opener is still on the nightstand where you left it.  I have so many memories of us here.  It's been over 10 years and I can't...