It's a new year....

It's a new year.  But am I doing anything new?
I've been reading over my last journal entries remembering the pain.  And yet- I am exactly right back where I was.  Still with him.
Last week he told me they had a blowup before he came here.  He told me she threatens him with divorce when she is left with the kids.  I can't imagine how frustrating that is.  I told him he's got to work it out.  Can you believe it?  I'm in love with him and I'm giving him advice on how to stay with his wife.
The truth is I know he won't want to be with me anyway.
His family deserves a chance to be together and be happy.  I have got to remove myself.  Maybe this will be the year?
I'm going to work on me.  I'm trying to buy a place.  That's exciting.  It's time to work on my health too.  If I can get myself in order maybe I can move on.