loveisnotenough

He cancelled.  At the last minute- again.  He knows I hate that.  I could have made other plans.  I'm starting to get tired of making someone a priority that only makes me an option.A few days...

So the words from Scandal are haunting me. I emailed them to him tonite that I can't stop thinking about these words:"You have nothing. You have a piles of secrets and lies and youre calling it...

So at the end of our time tonite, I looked at him and he asked what was wrong....I told him I didn't want him to be mad.  He said "oh, okay, what's going on...." and sat next to me on the bed and I...

I got an email from a COO in CA about a job. I told her I'm staying because my sister is having a baby and will be a single mom. But maybe that was the wrong thing to do. I'm half regretting it...

Facebook has this "People You May Know" feature or something like that.....and who shows up?  His wife- both of them actually in the pic.  Apparently we have a friend in common.  I'm going to...

I sent him an email that this is hard.He said email is safe.I'm so tempted to invite him over tomorrow night.  I've got to let this feeling pass.  It's good that we can't text anymore- it will cut...

He finally sent me a text message yesterday after nearly a week.Things are fine there.  My response worked and the fact that what I said in my text was the past tense.  He said I did the right...

I'm barely eating.  I hate myself.  I smile all day and pretend I'm just too busy to eat.  I really am busy so that's not hard.I just feel so sick with what I've done.  Does he feel sick?  I'm...

I received a blocked call at 10pm last night.  I answered. No response.  Is it her?  Is it the wife?  Did she just want to hear my voice?Then the nightmares.....I had vivid dreams that their...

I feel sick.  I'm anxious.  I'm sad.  I'm completely lost.I just want him to hold me.  I want him to tell me it's ok.  I want him to tell me he is sorry for not letting me go.  I want him to...

I'm sitting here typing this from "your side" of my bed.  The bottle opener is still on the nightstand where you left it.  I have so many memories of us here.  It's been over 10 years and I can't...

Wow..... she sent me a text stating she is his wife and needs to know from me if anything is going on between us and to please respond with the truth.I freaked.  I kept thinking.....if I dont...

My worst fear realized.It wasn't a horrible text......I talked about him in the past tense.  I'm sure he could find something to say to get off the hook.  Maybe tell her I'm some crazy...

I saw him last weekend.  It was nice.  I know that's awful to say but it really was.I miss him.  There have been so many issues going on with me this week that I want to cry to him about.Instead...

I sent him an email that this is hard.He said email is safe.I'm so tempted to invite him over tomorrow night.  I've got to let this feeling pass.  It's good that we can't text anymore- it will cut...