Saw him again.

I saw him last weekend.  It was nice.  I know that's awful to say but it really was.
I miss him.  There have been so many issues going on with me this week that I want to cry to him about.
Instead I've been emailing him and he's been emailing back.  It's been nice to have his support.  He understands my family issues and my history.
I had dinner with Kim last night....she said...."why don't you think you deserve better?"  I started crying and told her I don't know.
I really don't know.  But it's true I don't like myself much or think I deserve much.  I think part of it is that he won't hurt me.  He won't reject me again.  It's safe.