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written by Sir Henry Scott Holland  ( 1847 - 1918 )Death is nothing at all. It does not count. I have only slipped away into the next room. Nothing has happened. Everything remains exactly as it...

Moms first memorial Mass was on Thursday, September 22 at St. Maria Goretti's.  There was a nice turn out...35-40 people,  and that was just from being here a few short years...I am sure our SF...

All night we were up and down, in and out of her room, administering different remedies included in the Hospice "Care Kit' which included, morphine, adavan, suppositories, expectants, and drops to...

On Friday we had our first 'in-take' appointment with our hospice nurse, Bernice. She came to the house at about two and left at 3:30. It was a full meeting - so full of reality - I think both my...

I have fallen down -  and up the stairs -  if you can believe that one.  I took a tumble down the stairs yesterday while attending to mom's breakfast meal, and I just went on bouncing on my ass as...

It has been hard to find time sandwiched in-between everything that is going on here in mom's life ending.  Some amazing moments are occurring.  A few days ago, a melt down for both of us - in...

Its been a week of weeks and a month of months.  Eight days ago, we had to go to the hospital and then the rehab hospital and well it was a trek to get to both places and to care for my mom who has...

An interesting wrinkle of fate.  Mom is a child inside her adultness.  I got to the hospital at about 10:00 am and the momma hadn't eaten breakfast, but had communion from the eucharistic minister...

The last two days are part of the time warp I am traveling in with each breath of air I breath...and the transformation of my mother is astounding.  She has melted before my eyes and her voice is...

My husband came to help me with my mom two weeks ago...and it was so much easier with him here.  I didn't have to be alone with my thoughts, or with my anxiety over what my mom is going through, or...

My husband came to help me with my mom two weeks ago...and it was so much easier with him here.  I didn't have to be alone with my thoughts, or with my anxiety over what my mom is going through, or...

Saturday July 23, 2011Today began in the regular bubble I have been living in for the last month, but with a time delay.  I actually didn't get out of the house until 2:30 and felt a new sense of...

I started to write about my cousin visiting my mom yesterday and how it uplifted Mom's spirits,  and then my lap top disconnected from the page and I lost it.  So rather than go back wards, I want...

The slam came the day before my in laws were to arrive for a weeks vacation in California. My mom had phoned to tell me she had a growth removed from her chest that had come back cancerous.  She...

These dreams I have of my mom are more than eerie now.  I am not a person to remember my dreams - because I sleep so hard, and when I wake I only remember  fractured versions of dream images, and...