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ok so now the walls are down and I want them to stay down. But I don't know what to do with the feelings I don't like. FEAR Jealosy Anger Resentment FEAR pain sadness.  I think I should have known...

My mother says I'm in denial. I say if denial feels like this I hope I never wake up. I can't wait to see my dh after work, I can't wait to fix his coffee in the AM. I can't wait to feel his arms...

Joy peace happiness. I have it all!! Life is not perfect. there are plenty of issues at my house. But I have hope and Love and Passion! Please God let J feel what I feel and see what I see. True...

Love and Passion It feels good to be alive. I feel 16 again. I forgot what it felt like to WANT someone. not just want them to show up, but really WANT them. It is scary. FEAR tells us to double...

Ok here’s the scoop. Last night I went out to shoot some pool. I called dh and told him where I’d be. I had a couple drinks. He had a beer. I pretty much yelled at him for a couple hours. I...

be carefull adding caffeine to stacker 3. Especially when you are mad already... I am tired. I want to get away from everything. I dont know where to go. Unfortunately I only know one place to go. It...

The deep burning powerfull rage is almost blinding. My head is throbbing, my hands are shaking. I HATE THAT BASTARD> THAT PRICK < GOD ID LIKE TO RIP HIS GUTS OUT AND FEED THEM TO HIM UNTIL HE CHOKES!...

I have been through every emotion with that man. I loved him. He was my rock. We were best friends .We talked about everything. He lied he manipulated. He verbally stabbed me. He cut my heart, he cut...

don't be stupid. I can't stand stupid. It has to be easier to get over this shit that it could possibly be to  live with. I hate him now. I really hate him. I informed him its OVER and told him I...

How can he call me and say he didnt understand its over? UH yuou told me if I want the house to pay the mortgage. UH you told me to put the utilities in my name and I did.  I told you I was done...

LET IT GO AND STEP OUT!!!! I don't know if it was a message, I believe it was. I was thinking about why James couldnt just enjoy our lives with our grandchildren., and wether or not he was going to...

Guess I spoke too soon on Friday. He didnt come home until sat 4aM .I confess, ,I married a bio. I invited him to leave, so today he packed and is gone.I can pay my bills on paper, but I better be...

Everything is going ok. some ups, some downs. My dh needs to grow up. I don't know how long he is going to be stupid, but it's getting old. I get little help from him. He likes to play with the...

feeliong better today. Saw some things over the weekend that concerned me however. asked ddmom to feed gs . I come back and she's trying to feed him pizza in the lroom. I told her to stop giving him...

I don’t understand why my daughter would get pregnant TWICE before she became able to support her firstborn. I should be over this by now. However I’m still furious. It was not fair to him for...