be carefull adding caffeine to stacker 3. Especially when you are mad already... I am tired. I want to get away from everything. I dont know where to go. Unfortunately I only know one place to go. It is wednesday. I should know Im not going to have a good time regardless. I hear people say go have fun. I do not even kknow what to do to have fun. Yes I could go play trucks with my gs, but I want something different. I guess I want to know someone will want me. Gramma with babies. If I go to the bar and shoot some pool , the only people in there are alcoholic loosers. It is wednesday for crying out loud. I dont know what to do. i am lonely and angry. So go to class, i tell myself. but i feel lonely there too and i didnt do my assignment because i cant think right now. I don't know what to do with myself. I am being drawn to the bar because its the only place i know where people will be and i want to be around people right now. I cold go see my mother, but i dont know, maybe i just need one night to really get drunk and let it go.i hate him the lying manipulating betraying bastard. why do i care??????? why do i even care that he has chosen bars and whores by his actions? when he lived with me he wasnt home so why does it make any difference that hes not there. but i dont want to see his crap, his damned car has got to go. i could just go home and pack his shit and throw it in the garage probably way more productive than going to a fucking bar. i hate bars they suck the life out of their victims.everything is so damend complicated. I cant go just anywhere as some bars are membership only and I cant wait for that