No crying
I never cried today!
Had a couple small bouts of sadness but not enough to make me cry. Purposefully tried not to let my thoughts go too deep or morose today. Shall I try for 2 days of no crying?
My H doesn't want me to get stuck in this sad, mourning, punishing stage. I am trying not to. My priest tells me to guard my thoughts. It is hard to do. I work alone most of the time. Lots of thinking time.
I took a pic of myself smiling this morning and sent it to my H. I said, see? I am happy today!
Had a couple small bouts of sadness but not enough to make me cry. Purposefully tried not to let my thoughts go too deep or morose today. Shall I try for 2 days of no crying?
My H doesn't want me to get stuck in this sad, mourning, punishing stage. I am trying not to. My priest tells me to guard my thoughts. It is hard to do. I work alone most of the time. Lots of thinking time.
I took a pic of myself smiling this morning and sent it to my H. I said, see? I am happy today!
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Awesome!!!! Let\'s make it 2!!! : )
But seriously ... the biggest gift you can give your husband is his happy wife back. I know you\'re not going to be joyous all the time, but you can start to let go of this guilt now. It\'s time.
Believe it or not, that\'s the one thing that gets to me - my H (the CS) has a ton of remorse and still beats himself up on a regular basis. I wish he\'d stop because I hate to see him hurting and it just hurts me more. At one time I got a lot of relief and borderline happiness from it, but now that I\'ve let it go I wish he would too. ((hugs))
Thanks lisa......It is time. At least time to start working on that as a new goal. Hard to let go of the guilt when you know you deserve it. When you know you SHOULD have it. I guess letting go of it is more like allowing yourself to move past it. Letting it just be a scar. Scars don\'t need tending to. They are just there. Time to stop punishing and wallowing, that\'s not going to help anymore.