I deserve this shit.........
I have never been a great person no matter what ppl believe about me........I feel so badly for the way i talked to my grandmother while growing up.......I always made my brothers feel like shit, Did some really stupid shit to my mom and step dad, Even treated my dog like a piece of shit whenever i was mad or just acting like a spoiled brat.......I feel like shit about everything i have ever did in life to anyone and now im starting to think that i deserve to be treated the way my wife has treated me throughout our relationship.......I deserve to have wrestling taken away from me at only 27 years old, I deserve everything that has happened to me and whatever else is to come. I fully expect to never be happy again and to go to hell when i die.....So fuck it im done fighting......i have no urge to put up a fight anymore
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Sean there is nobody in this world that has not done anything..God the thought of wearing a white dress and becoming an angel..well for a start that aint going to happen ..for myself I dont know what I did in my previous life..I have lost many loved ones..I have a conditon that does everything to in its power to destroy me..I lost my dream ..I dont have my soulfriend..I even think God has a sense of humour..whats my gift..he gave me a laugh like a donkey..so a hells angel or a jokeshop angel..is whats coming for me
i feel you should give yourself time and some compassion for your self you life is not gonna get any better if you cant forgive your self it undstandable that all that time and you could have done bettter in treating others as you would like to be treated but not forgiving your self wont help it only make you feel worse possibly take a phew steps back away from the problem and then take a good glace at the sichuation when you feel better a fresh presective and a clear calm possibly happy mind can sometimes do wonders i hope this had helped some sort of way