God? What God?

Everynight that i lie down in the bed i try and pray.......i TRY and pray......I ask God to take away all of this violence and hate in my heart for her and still it persists to get worse and the worse it gets the more depressed i get and the more depressed i get the angrier i get and the angrier i get the more violent the thoughts become about .....HER.
I fucking hate that bitch so much for basically ruining my entire fucking life and yet there is nothing i can do about it.... I have dreams or possibly nightmares.....about breaking into her house and completely destroying her....him and EVERYTHING THAT THE BITCH FUCKING HOLDS DEAR TO THAT BLACK COAL LIKE FUCKING HEART OF HERS!!!!!!
.........Yet god still refuses to help calm my mind or the rage flowing through my entire fucking body right now.......Thx God