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- This fesh start was going really good and then one thing brings me back to the beginning. The horrified of life and the I cant do this anymore thoughts. Sitting and doing nothing but thinking, The I cant handle this new situation, or even this day....
- I am feeling unsure of myself. Moved inyo a place and starting all over. Last time I was alone. PTSD happened. I have been doing ok but having a hard time sleeping. My brain wont rest. This will be my first year ever that I will be alone for...
- I feel like I am going backwards right now and all over a guy. I was so strong and clear headed. Right now I can barely think. last week I made him admit too me that he was looking at websites while in portland. Because I know he did and he was...
- I dreamed again last night which triggered me big time. I take trazadone so I cant remember my dreams but these 2 dreams in a week. That remind me in a very distortred way of my past. I know its because I am suppose to leave tomorrow to surprise my...
- Man I hate weird dreams that seem to come out of no where. My mind is going. It was about people who kidnapped you and then had liike a reality show that was not on tv. First you had to have sex with someone yoou did not know that was kidnapped too....
- I am trying to meet a goal. Very nervous right now. Going to see my counselors then an interview for volunteering at a Hospital. Between my employer of 9 years messing with me because they wanted to let go of a highly paid employee ( they should of...
- So I was ready to move and start a new life and then he called and told me that he wanted to work it out no matter what it took. So i said I would talk to him in person before the move and clarified my needs, that are actually very minimal but very...
- I am sitting here in bed knowing I am making the right choices, healing,starting fresh. For the most part I am excited and there is this part of me is baffled. How do I do this,meet people and become a regular person that has a life. I have the...
- Everything going good and then I call Social Security,Drs, Disability , then I get anxious and it gets worse because its a reminder that I am not well. Then someone says since I am so anxious she does not want me to dye her hair like I am...
- Has anyone had trouble with putting up a real picture of yourself on this sight? I have been thinking about it because this feels like a safe place.
- So I guess my move is going to be put off for a couple weeks or so.I am in major pain cant lift or stand. Possible hysterectomy. I was so ready too. But I would not be able to lift anything. So I have accepted it and letting go. Just thought I would...
- Well i will be on the road Wednesday to pick up all my stuff from home.The last step of leaving. I am excited and nervous and a little overwhelmed. It will be hard to say goodbye to my guardian angel Puddles"his Dog" and my bestfriend through all...
- I was showing my long time good friend a video that I had made for Dr,Phil in the beginning of PTSD. I looked pretty bad very out of it. It was before my meds helped. And was shocked when she started laughing and saying things like....I should of...
- Hello everyone, I have been gone for a week, I went away to think about what I need and wanted from a relationship.As some of you know from prior posts I was in another unhealthy relationship. The good news is I got out of it, breaking patterns. He...
- So I am so confused as to what to do. My boyfriend and me have lots of good times when he is not busy with gigs or practice for his 2 bands that he is in. I have heard that it takes a special woman to handle a musician and his passion of music. You...