Hello everyone, I have been gone for a week, I went away to think about what I need and wanted from a relationship.As some of you know from prior posts I was in another unhealthy relationship. The good news is I got out of it, breaking patterns. He made it easy by letting go of me within 2 days of visiting my friends. Wow The good news is that I got approved for Social security the first time around. This makes me feel safe. I have to drive9 hours to get my stuff and see Social Security Rep.to see if I need a payee. I am anxious and excited,overwhelmed about seeing my ex. I heard his voice one day when he called. We are friendly enough. He knew I needed to go and he wanted me to go.

I was just triggered, someone I know wrote on facebook that she just found out her daughter had been molested 7 years ago and is raging. It reminded me of when I found out 2 of my kids were molested. She is talking about killing him on there.And letting her daughters personal stuff be known....That is so wrong.
I remember losing it when I found out, I ended up in the mental Hospital til the doctor told me I never should of been in there that I needed outpatient care,not impatient. There were alot of people that were having major melt downs and I was starting to feel crazier. I thank god for some one noticing that and helping me.But just the memory of finding out is messing with me big time. Anyways, I am back and I missed you.