I feel like I am going backwards right now and all over a guy. I was so strong and clear headed. Right now I can barely think. last week I made him admit too me that he was looking at websites while in portland. Because I know he did and he was lying. That I cant do. I saw them and showed them to him. Stupid me I thought he would of gotten out of those sights since he knew it hurt me the lies. So I was helping him today try to find a phone number and came a cross a reply to one of the sights that he actually looked at. He still claims that he did not do it does not know how he got this email spam probably. So I looked it up and found you had to sign up for it and there was a scam and that is that once you go on they want more money. He is still denying it. at first he said i have never seen that email, then because I had forwarded it to myself he said it was mine til I showed him the forward with his email address on it. then he said he did not remember it and I asked him how do you not remember the picture. It was a picture of a girl showing her privates. Then he remembered he did see it but was confused why it came to his email address like the other one. I forgave him for lying the first time once he had admitted it because it was while I was gon and he thought it was over. But he should of deleted the sites once he knew I was upset. Its not the site its the lie that is killing me and the fact he did not unsubscripe to the sight. Still denying it/ He does not know what to tell me but that its all some weird thing. And yet some how I want to believe him.... so stupid. I cant think of anything else high anxiety and terrible headache. just want to go to sleep and forget the day. anyone with words of wisdom?