02-09-09

i'm thinking a lot about things. i turned my tv off over three weeks ago.  i'm noticing how i feel more.  i think i was drowning my sorrows into Law and Order. i used those shows to stop crime, but it's not the real world. i'm doing things about it more: i'm being accountable. i don't speak to people. i don't look people in the eye. i don't come off credible and i can understand why. everyday people don't know what i'm going through and i'm not going to try to tell them. but life can be easier if i let it. the yoga is helping. the boxing is helping. therapy is helping. i want to start writing beautiful poetry - i bought a how to book. God, thank you for all your blessings.