well still no meeting for me **kicking myself in the arsse*** but a  old friend of mine **user of course **calledme tonihgt and asked about the meetings and told me *i ll see you there nance!*** great now i have to go lol well it will do me some good i know it ,,,,beside that welll being back with the x is going well he really wantes me to move back into the house  but i dont think im ready for that and i want to be sure 100% i can trust him again even tho i miss my house so much and where i live right now is a dive but its my lil  piece of heaven with the kids,,,,,,,i havent had a craving in so so long it scares me ,,,its like im waiting for it now lol ,,,,,i'm gaining a bit a weight at all the wrong places and its bugging me i have to go back to the y m c a and work out again,,,,,im plannning a stoping smoking by x mas i have to do it this time the kids kepp on saying they dont want me to die so ,,,,,,,,,,,,i really miss my frineds in n. a. but i dont trust many of them ,,,,,anyhoo its 4 am i better go back to sleep night night