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What a day

Mjay13
Mjay13

Today has been tough, you know when all those little things go wrong, build up adding to the mountain that’s already there and tips you over the edge? That kind of day. I didn’t, I don’t feel safe, I forced myself to go to the doctors and have yet another dosage increase. I don’t want to get out of bed, I don’t want to go to bed and deal with another sleepless night. I don’t want to struggle anymore. My deputy manager caught me mid panic attack and tried to send me home, if she sent me home every time I had one of those is never be at work. Im just feeling like this will never really be over. 

Seamus
Seamus
How's your appetite? Are you eating well and eating right? That has a lot to do with things too.
Mjay13
Mjay13
Practically non existent. I struggle to have 1 meal/snack a day, yes I know it doesn’t help but the thought of eating makes Me feel physically ill.
solitudeisnear
solitudeisnear
it's a pretty common feeling I know when we think that its never going to end, and it usally does at some point just not right when we need it to. Eating is hard too, sorry to hear that. I haven't been back to work because of my anxiety/panic attack. it only took me once , well actually several times and I finally couldn't do that to my co workers anymore. I hope the medication doesn't make you too sleepy, you do need better sleeping habits too. I have been there too recently because of my sciatic pain, so I am tired all day, and sleep, but when it comes to overnight sleep well it doesn't happen to well, I end up waking up at 2 a.m.
I am sorry to hear your and words end and feelings are rough. What does the doctor say, are they helpful? It has taken me several years to get back to calm. It sounds more awful than it has been but it does end for a while until yes we let stuff build up again and wam! Here we go again, Hang in there okay. We are here if you need us. I haven't been on in several years but I do know that it helps to talk it out with others.
Mjay13
Mjay13
Thank you for your words. The doctor is trying, now I’ve found one that I can sit in a room with
solitudeisnear
solitudeisnear
Your welcome! It sucks finding the right doctor. If they retire you like start allover. On the good side you get a different set of eyes. I'm thinking of med changes, but that is a whole other process. Yeah I'mup now and it was two when I woke up. Just typing away, don't know why, just doing it relieves me. Take care and maybe be friends at some point.
Ghostwolf04
Ghostwolf04
Work can be stressful. My job is not hard but some days like today I dread going in. I have fear I will snap at a customer and get fired or else slap a coworker right cross the face. I've found if I let myself indulge in little day dreams of throwing temper tantrums or committing violence, I actually feel better and less likely to really do something someone will notice. I know I sound nuts. But it does help.
Mjay13
Mjay13
Solitudeisnear;it’s definitley hard going through the meds change process but it’s all trial and error isn’t it. Insomnia is energy consuming silence. If only we had on/off buttons... take care and message me anytime you need to chat. Ghost wolf; it doesn’t sound nuts, I think many people have thoughts of ‘slapping that annoying coworker’. I imagine you are here because you struggle with depression, so, “my job is not hard” might not be entirely true, it’s an amazing step forward to have a job, and push yourself to go in even when you aren’t really looking forward to it. So well done hun. Same goes, message anytime