RDMyers65

This past week, I've been more depressed than I have in years.  Yes, I started Celexa again so it could be that starting to effect me.  I've actually made plans to kill myself but my cat won't let...

I don't know why, but I feel like I'm on the verge of tears.  I've slept for 12 hours today, partially due to a migraine.  Now I'm awake and I can't seem to stop from wanting to cry.  There hasn't...

The panic attacks are getting worst.  The other night, I had to go get groceries and the store was /not/ crowded and I had such a severe panic attack I was physically ill and all but left without...

My calm that I experienced right after the hospital didn't last a day.  I'm back to panicking several times a day.  Don't feel I can sleep and yet, when I do sleep, I don't want to wake up. ...

I had one of the worst panic attacks ever the other night.   It was so bad that I was physically ill.   Nothing caused it that I know of.  But after vomiting twice and being so afraid that I...

I spent today cooking at Mom's until I ran out of things to cook.  I was trying to work off the anxiety by cooking.  Chopping things is very therapeutic sometimes.  I just don't want to think or...

I woke up about 3 am last night despite the fact I took a prescription sleep aid.  Why, because of the holidays.  I started crying because I just 'felt' I would be highly disappointed in the Xmas...

45.   I'm now 45.   I didn't want to have another birthday.  I still don't wanna have another birthday but it's here whether I like it or not. *sighs*

that a death in the family brings out the worst in family members?   One of my uncles passed and when my mom was talking to one of my other uncles, the other uncle launched in about overweight...

Well, instead of $24,000 for my appendectomy, I only owe $12,800 for it now.   As if I can afford that.   Why doesn't the hospital understand that I had been dropped from medicaid and only had a...

Well, I'm kinda anti-Black Friday.  I stayed home all day and slept.   I've slept 17 hours in the past 24 hours.  I can feel the depression getting worst.   The cats have noticed it as both of...

Well, needless to say, this has been a stressful past two days.  It started ok, I guess, but by last night, everything was going downhill.   Was cooking for today and left my mother with my pecan...

Up way too early.  I only got about 4 hours of good sleep although I tried to get more sleep, the cats refused to let me.   Too wide awake to sleep anymore.  Don't wanna do anything but yet, I'm...

Went to the GP type doctor this morning.  Blood sugar is out of control.   Chlorestrol is high on the bad and low on the good and I possibly have sleep apnea.   New meds for the diabetes.  ...

Ok, I'm extremely panicky and depressed at the moment.   Not sure why as I have never figured out what triggers either one.   I just want to crawl into bed and cry.