RDMyers65

Wow, talk about years. Funny how nothing changes.  The last few entries I could have written this past six months instead of years ago.  It surprised me that I mentioned mom's dementia back in...

My cats hear thunder and take refuge under the chair.  I think last week's storm really scared them. Trying to calm down.  Bad panic attack.   Nothing to have caused it.   Why does my 15 year...

Ever want to sleep but can't get comfortable enough to sleep.  No matter how much I try, sleep has been elusive this past week.  I'm averaging 4 hours a night.  I feel exhausted, drained and...

So much for my being anxiety free.  It's back....less than 12 hours of peace.

For the first time in a VERY long time, I don't feel anxious.  I feel I'm at peace.  How this happened, I don't know.  It may be the new meds, but I don't know.  I'm just going to enjoy not...

My psych doc and the rest in their office have decided to stop taking insurance and deal only with those with medicaid.  Therefore, I have to find a new doctor.  First appointment is 3 months from...

I'm not happy, I'm not sad, I am just here....that is when I'm not in panic.  I hate being in panic.  I get physically ill sometimes when I'm in panic.  ...

I have had three panic attacks in the past 24 hours.  It is so not fun.  It's getting to the point where I'm hiding from my cats.  Mind you, they are the only things keeping me alive but they...

It's getting where I can't go out to get groceries without a panic attack.  I wasn't there more than 30 minutes before it hit.  They don't have delivery services around here so I've no choice.  Of...

Why is it when you try to do something nice, it gets thrown back in your face?  I did what I thought was a good deed to help someone, and they get mad and say I'm interfering.  Never try to help...

I am SO very glad I no longer live in Virginia.  I would been terrified with the earthquake as I would be focusing on the hurricane approaching.  Natural disasters are not something I like dealing...

I am definitely in mania mode.   I've overspent and it's the first of the month so it's going to be rough the rest of the month.  I got 3 hours of sleep...and it was one of those sleeps that was...

Ever just feel bleh?  I do.  Not hyper, not depressed.  Just numb.  I'm existing.  Haven't felt well the past few days at all.  It /could/ be the fact I've been having migraines and digestive...

You know, years ago, I used to enjoy the 4th and going to the fireworks and everything.  Now, when I hear them, I only cry. 

I'm officially depressed again.  Slept for 13 hours last night.  Still want to sleep but I know I need to stay awake a bit more.   Feel very blah today.  Time moves so slowly when depressed.