RDMyers65

Up way too early.  I only got about 4 hours of good sleep although I tried to get more sleep, the cats refused to let me.   Too wide awake to sleep anymore.  Don't wanna do anything but yet, I'm...

Went to the GP type doctor this morning.  Blood sugar is out of control.   Chlorestrol is high on the bad and low on the good and I possibly have sleep apnea.   New meds for the diabetes.  ...

Ok, I'm extremely panicky and depressed at the moment.   Not sure why as I have never figured out what triggers either one.   I just want to crawl into bed and cry.  

Is it possible to feel both hypomania and depression at the same time?!?!  Right now, I'm having symptoms of both.  I'm hearing voices and noises behind me but I know nothing is there.  I feel so...

I had the oddest dream last night.  In the dream, the kids were back to toddler age and my ex husband was driving the car, so the dream had to be set back 18 years ago.  Anyways, my ex husband was...

Nothing seems to satisfy me at the moment.   I'm extremely restless but can't manage to stay still.  Thoughts are racing.   Yes, took my meds.  I don't wanna be online, I don't wanna sleep, I...

Well, went to the new GP doctor's today... so, I will have meds for my diabetes.  I guess that's going in the right direction.

I got a letter today from the insurance company that they weren't going to cover my Lamatcil.  Mind you, the generic is on their formulary but only as an anti-seizer medication.  It seemed to be...

Well, my arm isn't hurting as much as it was, but the elbow is still soreish.  I did manage to get 6 hours sleep last night but I still feel tired... drained.   Debating on going to take a nap. ...

Ouch, ouch, ouch.  I slept on my arm wrong and it hurts to type much.   Well, moving it hurts.  If I rest my hands on the keyboard, I can type a little.  I know, not proper posture.    But,...

I was making an introduction post and it didn't seem to fit, so I'm moving it here.I was raped by the babysitter's son when I was ten and of course, when the adults found out, he said I asked for it...

I love Samhain.   Watching the kids wear costumes (as they were getting off the bus from school) and all the candy.  I know, I shouldn't eat candy but I still sneak one small chocolate bar once in...

Well, I crashed last night.   I didn't want to wake up this morning.   Slept for over 12 hours.  The cats decided it was time for me to be awake (as they could see the bottom of the food dish) ...

Well, in the past 48 hours, I've had maybe 9 hours sleep.   I don't feel sleepy at all.  I got used to this when I was still living with the ex hubby.   I used to have to sleep with one eye open...

For years, all the doctors I have seen have suggested journaling.  I'm no good at keeping up with anything and I have the memory of a gnat, or it seems that way.  There is just so many thoughts...