More panic attacks

The panic attacks are getting worst.  The other night, I had to go get groceries and the store was /not/ crowded and I had such a severe panic attack I was physically ill and all but left without buying anything.  I had another bad one last night when I was going to sleep.  Nothing brought it on as I was just lying in bed and was tired.  I stay at a near constant panic at all times it seems.  It takes little to trigger the panic.  Can't go to sleep though.  Waiting on UPS to deliver my meds.  Perhaps I shouldn't procrastinate so long on ordering them. I'm out of my psych drugs, but not my diabetic drugs. 
 
I also heard the cow again...  considering there are not any cows in my house, it's quite mysterious...  or I'm hallucinating again, which is more likely.   I've heard my name several times lately and have seen things out of the corner of my eyes.  Whatever it is, they are watching me.  Feels like I'm living in a fishbowl.  I'm constantly being watched.
 
At least I'm more medically compliant these days than I was several months ago.  When I do hit depression, it isn't suicidal but it is bad enough I don't want to awaken the next morning.  That would be better for everyone.  I've given up hope.