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Just got back from the ER.  I ended up really cutting and needed stitches.  I'm really dissappointed in myself right now and just feel like crying and taking enough meds to guarantee that I sleep...

Feeling better today...definitely think getting off the Oxazepam was a good move.  My roommate is away for a bit so I slept in the living room last night on the futon...it's soooooo much more...

Am having quite a day.  The clonazepam helped a little bit with sleep...still had the initial insomnia but I eventually put on some music and I think I feel asleep before the cd was over...so I know...

I was too upset to write in my last entry...but you likely guessed by my goal update that I have recently had issues with self harm.  I have.  I'm really struggling with it. I didn't cut exactly,...

too upset to write right now....later i will

Happy Valentine's Day to YOU!  This is turning into one of the worst reactions I've had from an adhesive.  I tried to get in to see a doctor yesterday but all the clinics were overbooked already. ...

I'm thinking it's interesting and odd...that I seem to develop allergies or other issues that get in the way of all my treatments. I have asthma...am questionably allergic to many meds used to treat...

Feeling a little better today as long as I don't let myself think much.  Dealing with side-effects from the Valtrex (headache and no appetite) and an allergic reaction from the adhesive (itchy,...

I actually did end up walking to my appointment.  It wasn't so bad...cold though.  Stopped at a friends for about 10 minutes before continuing on to my appointment.  My psychologist was pretty...

Still don't know how I've managed to not give in.  It's not that I particularly want to give in...just that I miss it and spend 24/7 thinking about it.   The podiatrist is trying a treatment with...

I'm not really doing good or bad at the moment....so I guess that means I'm okay.  Today I'm just feeling really tired...tired of a lot of different things.  I feel like I've done so much work to...

I'm just going to check in quickly.  I'm totally feeling crabby today and didn't sleep well last night even with the help of the meds.  I just couldn't get my brain to shut off.  I have to leave...

Today has been better.  I did fall asleep last night not too long after writing last night's entry.  I've been up since shortly after 8am this morning.  I stayed away from the computer most of the...

“Life is not about the people who act true to your face. It is about the people who remain true behind your back " I am giving you a DAILY SURVIVAL KIT to help you each day.   ...

I think I'm stuck in a catch 22 and I don't know how to get myself outta this one.  The oxazepam works pretty for helping me get a good amount of sleep and stay on a normal schedule but I think it's...